by Jim Stitzel | Feb 23, 2026 | General
I slept five hours last night. I was expecting seven, but of course my anxiety had other ideas. Do you know what it’s like to wake up in the wee hours of the morning, not yet fully awake but just semi-comatose enough to know that something isn’t right? You hear...
by Jim Stitzel | Feb 12, 2026 | General
I feel like so much colorful trash today. (Yes, there is such a thing as colorful trash. It’s the same as regular trash, just, y’know, brighter. Don’t ask me how it works. I don’t make the rules.) Between sleeping much less than my usual number of hours the last month...
by Jim Stitzel | Dec 13, 2025 | General
(Content warning: discussion of death and dreams of bullying and violent behavior) I don’t understand my sleeping mind. I can’t remember the last time I had a true nightmare. But for a number of years now, the kinds of dreams I have feature situations and scenarios...
by Jim Stitzel | Nov 19, 2025 | General
I want to sleepAnd never wake up. Most days. Some days?A lot of days. I want peace. Of mind. Of body. Of spirit. Of every fucking thing. Which is — Unattainable. Unaccountable. Unachievable. At least for...
by Jim Stitzel | Nov 12, 2025 | General
I have a cluster of mental illnesses — Major Depression, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Panic Disorder, and Social Anxiety. It’s a real shit-show of issues, if I’m honest, and others who’ve been there can attest to that fact. It’s a common cluster of illnesses,...
by Jim Stitzel | Oct 30, 2025 | General
The candle flame dances before my eyes, moving to unseen but noticeable currents in the air. The room around me is dark, so the only light is from the candle before me. I am focused on that light, on that flame, and I sit with it in meditation. I can feel the energy...
