by Jim Stitzel | Dec 13, 2025 | General
(Content warning: discussion of death and dreams of bullying and violent behavior) I don’t understand my sleeping mind. I can’t remember the last time I had a true nightmare. But for a number of years now, the kinds of dreams I have feature situations and scenarios...
by Jim Stitzel | Nov 19, 2025 | General
I want to sleepAnd never wake up. Most days. Some days?A lot of days. I want peace. Of mind. Of body. Of spirit. Of every fucking thing. Which is — Unattainable. Unaccountable. Unachievable. At least for...
by Jim Stitzel | Nov 12, 2025 | General
I have a cluster of mental illnesses — Major Depression, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Panic Disorder, and Social Anxiety. It’s a real shit-show of issues, if I’m honest, and others who’ve been there can attest to that fact. It’s a common cluster of illnesses,...
by Jim Stitzel | Oct 30, 2025 | General
The candle flame dances before my eyes, moving to unseen but noticeable currents in the air. The room around me is dark, so the only light is from the candle before me. I am focused on that light, on that flame, and I sit with it in meditation. I can feel the energy...
by Jim Stitzel | Oct 26, 2025 | General
I’ve been an atheist for probably 15 or more years now. Quietly. Secretly. Covertly. For most of that time, I kept quiet about my unbelief because I was still immersed in a Christian culture. I was married to a Christian woman. We went to church every Sunday. My...
