Sin Is a Fabrication

Sin Is a Fabrication

One of the most profound moments in my spiritual journey was the moment I realized I no longer believe in the concept of sin. About seven years ago, I was lying in bed, trying unsuccessfully to find my way to sleep because I was wrestling with guilt over some trivial...
That Time I Tried to Reclaim My Faith

That Time I Tried to Reclaim My Faith

Right after my first hospitalization and subsequent separation from my ex-wife in 2016, I made an attempt to reclaim my former faith. Up to this point, I had been a reluctant atheist, and I was still struggling through the ramifications of my lost faith, my lost sense...
I Never Wanted To Be an Atheist

I Never Wanted To Be an Atheist

Trigger warning: discussion of suicidal ideation and mental health inpatient treatment I never wanted to be an atheist. It was never something that I chose. It was something that happened to me, over the course of more than a decade. The irony of this is that it was...
Anxiety As a Factor of Gaming

Anxiety As a Factor of Gaming

I haven’t done any kind of gaming or streaming to Twitch over the last 10 days. It’s the longest hiatus I’ve taken since I started gaming again at the beginning of January. Up until recently, I played something — usually either Destiny 2 or ARC...
Sleep, and the Struggle Thereof

Sleep, and the Struggle Thereof

I slept five hours last night. I was expecting seven, but of course my anxiety had other ideas. Do you know what it’s like to wake up in the wee hours of the morning, not yet fully awake but just semi-comatose enough to know that something isn’t right? You hear...