Christmas Cheerless

Christmas Cheerless

I’m sitting here, cup of coffee in hand — slowly cooling — Christmas music playing in the background on my Alexa Echo device. My kids are playing Minecraft, begging for my attention every few minutes to show me something new they’ve built or...
Seven Hours In An Emergency Room

Seven Hours In An Emergency Room

I stand in the waiting area of a local emergency room, standing because I cannot bear to sit, cannot bear to hold still. I’m on day four of Panic Attack #ItDoesn’tEvenMatter, and I can barely hold myself together. I’m at the emergency room because I...
Following Medical Directions

Following Medical Directions

So, I messed up. Sort of. I followed my doctor’s directions, even when I was pretty sure I shouldn’t. You see, almost two weeks ago, he put me on Abilify because my Effexor had stopped working for me. I’d fallen into a deep state of depression for...
New Day, Familiar Anxiety

New Day, Familiar Anxiety

I move about my morning routine with a familiarity that has come from months of habit. I get up, make my bed, get dressed, get breakfast. I pop a fresh K-cup into my Keurig and wait as it brews up the cup of coffee that has now become a regular part of my daily...
Postmortem: Three Weeks Without Facebook

Postmortem: Three Weeks Without Facebook

It’s been just about three weeks now since I decided to take a break of indeterminate length from Facebook. A couple of people have asked me how it’s going and admitted they probably should do something similar because they always find themselves going to...