New Day, Familiar Anxiety

New Day, Familiar Anxiety

I move about my morning routine with a familiarity that has come from months of habit. I get up, make my bed, get dressed, get breakfast. I pop a fresh K-cup into my Keurig and wait as it brews up the cup of coffee that has now become a regular part of my daily...
Postmortem: Three Weeks Without Facebook

Postmortem: Three Weeks Without Facebook

It’s been just about three weeks now since I decided to take a break of indeterminate length from Facebook. A couple of people have asked me how it’s going and admitted they probably should do something similar because they always find themselves going to...
Sleepus Interruptus

Sleepus Interruptus

I can’t remember the last time I had a regular, steady sleep rhythm. At the least it’s been months. At most it’s been several years. I know that at least one contributing factor is my ongoing battle with anxiety, though it’s been a few weeks...
For the Love of Sleep

For the Love of Sleep

Yesterday was a difficult day, the first I’ve had in quite a while (if you don’t count the panic attack I suffered the first couple days of the year). It was bad enough that I took the first emergency klonopin I’ve needed in weeks. On the one hand,...
2018 Retrospective: Mental Health

2018 Retrospective: Mental Health

As a result of my brief stint in jail, I knew there were some changes I needed to make in the care and treatment of my mental health. I had already been contemplating switching away from the clinic in Lafayette. But the events leading up to my violent fugue were proof...