Crow

Crow

The crow talks to me. It sits on the road sign, with its black eyes, its black beak, and its black feathers, and it speaks to me. I don’t understand the words — they’re in bird, of course. But the words come, all the same. They take up space inside my mind,...
Pain

Pain

The lingering pain. It’s all I can think about. It dwells in my consciousness like an open wound, even though there is no injury to be found. It’s like fire in my flesh, a deep, crippling fury that makes me lose my sanity at times. I never should have made...
Portal

Portal

My toilet bowl is a portal to another dimension. Ask me how I know this. Great! I’m glad you asked. You know how I know it’s a portal? It swirls when I flush it, and I’m not just talking about the water. That swirls, too. No, when I flush, there is...
Hackers, and the Joy of Migrating Servers

Hackers, and the Joy of Migrating Servers

So, I’ve had hackers all up in my server the last few days. They have kept installing malware and making file changes to my websites I host on my server. And I’ve been going through and running regular scans and fixing the things they’ve mucked up....
The Brain’s Faulty Circuits

The Brain’s Faulty Circuits

TW: frank discussion of suicidal ideation The last few days, possibly even the last couple of weeks, I’ve struggled with a suicidal ideation right around bedtime. I’ve written previously about the fact that mental unwellness creeps up on me at the end of...