How often do you really think about what it is that God sees when you worship? I think especially of worship songs, where (it seems to me) it is so easy to simply get caught up in the moment, in the emotion of the music. I reflect back those chapel services and wonder if
sometimes there weren’t some of us who were trying to outdo everyone else with the purity and passion of our worship. There were worship times when it all felt so rehearsed, so… scripted. It kept me constantly aware of my own intentions, of my own heart, constantly analyzing and checking to make sure that my heart was true, that what I was singing and feeling was genuine adoration for this God of mine. I fear that, at times, I failed, and yet I can’t help but think that God accepted what I gave Him nonetheless.
I continue to be wary of my own intent in worship, to the point now where I often will not even sing if I feel I can’t be honest, if I can’t sing (or say) the words and really mean them. I still
wonder if the worship in our churches isn’t a little bit false, but there is really nothing I can do if it is — nothing except keep my heart and my motives pure and in so doing cause others to take notice of Christ in me. I think that is the beginning of fellowship – showing Christ in such a way as to cause others to be even more sensitive to Him.